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Paranoia
03:59
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Hate when they talk
Terrified
Hate when the voices talk
Running my mind amok
Social Lies
Paranoia in my conscience
And when it talks
I don't care at all
Moral fentanyl
I'm a book with different endings
If my exes talk
Should I care at all?
Guess my character is flawed!
Sometimes I have trouble being honest
Follow my moral compass it
leads to a dead end
Leveraged words sound absurd
I'll convert social curves
(This is fucked; I wish it wasn't. I question my own involvement.)
Paranoia of the masses
And when they talk
I don't care at all
Moral fentanyl
Innocence a distant memory
When my exes talk
Should I care at all?
Guess my character is flawed!
I’m using justifying lines, always the good ones
Cue from the black lung: time to step outside
Out of spite
I want you to be honest
Does the energy I harness make you feel alright?
Leveraged words sound absurd
I’ll convert social curves
(This is fucked; I wish I wasn’t questioning my moral compass.)
If twisted thoughts were poison I’d be dead
Paranoia in my conscience
And when it talks
I don't care at all
Moral fentanyl
I’m a book with different endings
If my exes talk
Should I care at all?
Guess my character is flawed!
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2. |
Entertainment Lies
03:45
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A callous cinema
Erotic idiom
I am a witness
Video Violence
Evading chastity
Scared
Straining for the face they'll seek on the camera
Another dream gone
A parent’s heart attack
I know it’s all wrong
Coerce into violation
Brainwash into adoration
I think she felt a void
Spiritual vacuum
I hate what’s out there
Tears
Another dream gone
Her parents’ heart attack
I know it’s all wrong
Coerce into violation
Brainwash into adoration
Now someone's seal is broken
Selling off their love
Someone's pride is taken
Selling service
Selling service
Pictures just do half the justice telling of the crime
Lewd director taking his sweet time
Talent buyers violate
Damnit they all get away
Moral anguish nauseates
Another one (trapped again)
It's so calculated
Demonstrate entitled behavior
In the culture
In the culture
So many dreams gone
A family heart attack
I know it’s all wrong
Coerce into violation
Brainwash into adoration
Demeaning exploitation captured onto tape
We must expose the secret molestation
Entertainment Lies
Red Light
Red Light
Red Light
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3. |
Body Damage
04:31
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A life was stolen today
A moment passed and it was gone
The carnage in the car
Accompanied the girl
Who was here
Now she’s there
In a 3’ x 8’ cell
I’m afraid of my soul leaving my body there
On a gassoaked
road with nothing to give
Take the time to count my blessings
‘Til the time it’s me they bury
Where is it we compromise to be?
Why is it we think “It never will be me”?
Crash scene depicted with the victim ejected out
Crushing of bone
Feeling of shock
Running the stop
Cue paramedic
Triage requested
Until the 3’ x 8’ cell
I’m afraid of my soul leaving my body there
On a bloodsoaked
road with nothing to give
Take the time to count my blessings
‘Til the time it’s me they bury
Where is it we compromise to be?
Looking away at the wrong time
Too many others are complacent
Caution may not stop a reckless path
The driver of the car was shrieking
As the girl
Who was here
Fought for air
I hope I’m never there
Strewn on the pavement
Strewn on the pavement
Cue paramedics
Triage requested
Take the time to count my blessings
‘Til the time it’s me they bury
I’m afraid of leaving my body there
Strewn on the pavement
I’m afraid of leaving my body there
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I still recall the time when I was 17
The officer who warned you both about me
And in the years before
I knew you’d seen it, too
The warning signs were scars of future rescue
Tell her later
The words of gratitude escape me
The shit I put you through…I wish that I could take it back
Was I ever hard to love?
My life is owed to you
This all is tribute
Father if you are the one the apple fell so close to
I understand the things you did
What’s going wrong?
And who else is to blame?
“Our son is gone. Our son is gone!”
Never thought I’d want to
Tell her later
The words of gratitude escape me
The shit I put you through…I wish that I could take it back
Was I ever hard to love?
My life is owed to you
This all is tribute
How did you get any sleep at night?
Tell her later
Tell her later
What did I put you through?
I wish that I could take it back
Was I ever hard to love?
My life is owed to you
This all is tribute
I wish that I could take it back
I wish that I could take it back
I wish that I could take it back
Was I ever hard to love?
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The 'Fun' in Dysfunction
04:59
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Nix that moment of love
Earning your trust
Tear it apart for us
My vision is rough
It isn’t love
Tear it apart for us
Tainted flesh is all over the room
Toxic fumes make them nauseous
But I need it
Craving dysfunction and violence
Perfect reactor
Afraid to break
Embrace the pain
The pain is safe
Let it in
Afraid to break
Embrace the pain
Feel it
Don’t let us die alone
(Die all alone)
(Afraid to break up)
Don’t let us die alone
(Die all alone)
(Afraid to break up)
Don’t let it go
(Go)
Don’t you like to feel this way
(You’re always wrong)
Destructing all of the pictures of
(Always numb. I’ve heard it all)
Everything closely resembling us
(This shouldn’t be OK I know it’s not right)
Destructing triggers of everything
Burn out
Swelling with doubt
Romance a lacerated myth
Tainted flesh is all over the room
Toxic fumes make them nauseous
But I need it
Craving dysfunction and violence
Perfectly reacting as one
I see it every night
While feeding off the fights
‘Bout time you killed the shrine
Existing ties of us
A double suicide!
Darkened
Fiction
Romance
Double suicide
Puppeteering lies
A reckless cycle of
(Get out, come back)
Always keeping hope
Tugging at your soul
Parasitic love lines
Barricade us in
Afraid to break
Embrace the pain
The pain is safe
Let it in
Darkened
Fiction
Romance
Get out
Come back
Let it in
Give me something I can hold on to
Something that loves to destruct
As I do
Convolute!
Give me something I can hold on to
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Tales to spin
Scraping the skin
Planting a way for incident
Oh, there's always a motive we can't get around
Forcing the pieces
Lies awry, no alibi
Framing the needed agenda
Choosing how to stun
These are the ones paid to protect us!
This is my cry for redemption
You owe me this, you owe me this
When we call them out
And sort through the fiction
They silence it
It’s over with
Now he’s stuck in the concrete
And we won’t get him out
Losing time that will never come back
Jurisdiction games scream your name
Appointed crooks never get caught
Never get caught
What better way to camouflage?
What better way to camouflage?
Forcing the pieces
Lies awry, no alibi
Faking the needed protocol
Circumvent the law
Living in a state of fear for life
That's where the problem lies
Justice system fabricated
“Just us” system
They’re swearing on a book of verses
That's supposed to make it true?
They’re lying
And the devil was the state’s design
How many are tainted?
Justice system fabricated
“Just us” system
How many are tainted?
Justice system fabricated
“Just us” system
This is our cry for redemption
You owe me this, you owe me this
When we call them out that makes them nervous
They silence it
It’s over with
Now he’s stuck in the concrete
And we won’t get him out
Losing time that will never come back
Jurisdiction games scream your name
Appointed crooks never get caught
Never get caught
What better way to camouflage?
What better way to camouflage?
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Feeding off of my cold insides was the doubt instilled around me
Second guessing
Not impressing
Silence will hide it
My existence is subpar when pity's obsolete
Campus is closed
Students go home
I sulk in bed
But the person laying beside me holds on
Partially saving me
Bracing the insecurities
You stayed nudging me gently
Thank you, truly, for the love
Velvet sheets place of confession
Safety blanket - your gift to me
Feeding off of my nervous mind was the damage done inside me
Self inflicting
Isolating
Capsules will hide it
Fuck the feeling I get when she tried to comfort me
What could she do?
Suffocate on 1st Avenue
This was not the way I wanted it to be
This was not the way you wanted it for me
Taking measures to sever and resign
On repeat
On repeat
Take your feelings and cleanse yourself of mine
Slip away
Toss my things
Self inflicting
Undeserving
Anger will hide it
Fuck the feeling I felt when she finally had enough
To my chagrin, I watched her love for me begin to
Burn nice and slow
Burn nice and slow
Burn nice and slow
Burn up
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Hours streaming
Stretching out longer than the days
Getting high just gets me low
The reason I know
Should I feel anything at all?
And then the season ends and I’m still stuck in fall
Everywhere I look’s a trigger
I start to wonder if I knew myself at all
No, she knew me so much better
See, your face is a dream
And my dreams are faced with
Just forgetting
Getting high just gets me low
You told me so
Was I just never listening?
The season ends and I’m still stuck in fall
Everywhere I look’s a trigger
I start to wonder if I knew myself at all
No, she knew me so much better
If you stop breathing
You can have my breath
Now it’s everyone’s surprise
Flashback parade
You give your whole self to one
You’re just having fun
‘Til you realize you pushed them away
The reasons are mine
I get frustrated when they intertwine
What was once yours and mine
Is just a dried up, calloused, toxic, pouring cyst
I admit you were right
I’m not sad that
You don’t care to hear what I have to say
When you stop breathing
You can hold your breath
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9. |
Ministry of Truth
04:27
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Serving us
Serving secret trust
Lead with trust and aplomb
(Patriotic Gambit)
Then suppress us; guess I’m wrong
I’m the type to pry
Asking questions
Poking holes
Masses
(Irony)
Crafted on a string
Carving liberty
Agony committee, save a seat for me
Chauvinistic TV
I need to leave
Pseudo men out of their mind
Vertigo
Maniacs carry control
Holding me hostage
I’ll say nothing
You’ll get nothing from me
Bleed integrity
You should say you’re sorry
(Secret Manifesto)
Say you’re fucking sorry!
Repent
(Patriot)
Your call
Strangle us
Get it done
While we are oblivious
Fall
We're in a secret war
It's set in motion
We're taught to trust the fear we are presented
We gladly wear the chains we are presented
Disguising Liberty
Sold as protection
Fraudulent
Watching over us
Agony committee
There's a seat for me
Chauvinistic TV
I need to leave
Pseudo times into my mind
Calypso
Maniacs carry control
Holding me hostage
I’ll say nothing
You’ll get nothing from me
Bleed integrity
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Moments stuck in time regretted
Mirror motive
Memories
Mescaline helps repeat the past
Always the selfish role I would be typecast
Passive aggressive
Passion aggressor
That’s the cross I’m on
That’s the cross I’m on
The different faces that I’ve maintained in the 8 years prior all change
Adapting
All of the faces that I’ve faced when coming clean smolder in my dreams
Guilty memories
Was it a thrill for me?
No one deserves it!
Two personalities
Flashes of eras tainted for two
Insanity
Swapping out one for another
Finding different ways to draw a picture
That comes out the same
Passive aggressor
Passion aggressive
The different faces that I’ve maintained in the 8 years prior all change
Adapting
All of the faces I’ve manipulated still torture me
Guilty memories
Did the sign on my bed frame prepare you for the mental break in?
All the faces of deceit
Guilty in between coming clean
(Memory mescaline)
That's the cross I'm on
Flash of eras tainted
Nobody deserves it
Maybe I was a disease...
They were so sweet, every heart I've disconnected with
Even though we've made amends, I dwell on it
Moments stuck in time I still regret
If I had missed the windows on the days we were to first meet
Would it save you all from me?
And the pain I'd cause?
Maybe I don't want to know
Every time you'd know to leave, I would beg you to believe in me
“Is this really how it ends? Are we over with? "
I wish you had right then told me yes
For what it's worth I’ll never forget
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